a friendly blog

2009-12-27T08:29:00.000+08:00

Just let it end hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Omg having this kind of thoughts again.z .

2009-09-21T17:20:00.004+08:00

也许因为家人是一辈子的存在,所以常常被当成理所当然也许因为朋友只是暂时的拥有,所以显得特别的重要,可贵
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2009-08-05T19:20:00.001+08:00

sinto muito

2009-08-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

just don't feel like talking now.
brings back memories.

2009-07-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

there are actually many things in life to think about.
if you actually have the courage to ponder over them,
feeling empty means nothing.
im just glad we are almost there.

a marathon runner never stops. he slows down. don't give up just as yet.

2009-07-11T00:03:00.000+08:00

You have always been my pillar of strength.
never gonna give you up.

2009-06-16T08:32:00.002+08:00

GOING FOR MY CLASS BBQ LTR. SO EXCITED.
YAY !
=D

sometimes, life is just not what it seems to be. it just has to end somewhere somehow

2009-06-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

Moment in Time

by Cynthia Kepp

We talked,
We walked,
for a Moment in Time.

You passed through my life that day and left your mark.
You may never pass my way again,
Or you may stay for a lifetime.

No matter what,
I want to say thank you for the impression you made
that will stay with me for eternity.

I enjoyed the walk,
I enjoyed the talk.
I am blessed for that moment in time.

The first time I saw you I knew you would affect my life,
though your role I did not know.
I asked myself, "Why is he alone?
Why does he sit so quiet, all alone?
Is he sad?
Is he glad to be alone?
Is he alone?
Is he lonely? "
There is so much I want to know.

I asked myself, "Why him?
When so many people pass through my life each day,
why him? "

What attracts me to you?
What makes me want to know more?
I want to know.

Even if my questions are never answered,
There is one thing I want you to know.
I have been blessed by the effect you had on me in that
Moment in Time.

sometimes life can be sooooooooo tiring.

2009-06-12T08:28:00.003+08:00

its so wonderful how the world is shaped.
i really really wish to be able to have the wealth to visit all the places in the world.
i want to see the world !
i want to see the pyramids!
i want to see real waterfalls!
i want to see real wild life animals.
i want to , i want to , i want to.

so many thing i actually want to do .
looks like i have to study hard for education so that i can get pass jc den get pass university den get my degree and then maybe i can find a job that provides me with the wealth to let me go allllll over the globe.

but for now, i seriously don't get the meaning of learning, of studying.
supposed to make us happy ? how come i don't feel so .
supposed to give us the joy of learning? how come. i don't feel joy like i used to .
supposed to enrich our mind? i suppose so. -.-

studying is so different now. since its like near the Os.
all the people around u is telling u .
its near the Os and you should start working.
its going to be over very very soon etc.
its just a few more months.

truth is, they are all lying.
theres always As after the Os.
this is such a scam .
no wonder singaporeans are always so grumpy and unhappy.
they don't get joy out of learning .
they are forced to study!
they have a lifeless life.

Education... has produced a vast population able to read but unable to distinguish what is worth reading.

2009-06-08T18:44:00.003+08:00

WELL.
its OK NOW. im so glad. like i said i haven't been able to sleep so well for almost half a year's time.sometimes. what we think is the worst always turn out to be something so good and nice and enriching.

Alright, today. i had so much fun.
it was a bad day. overall. SOME PEOPLE. told mii it was a maths at 8 . END up it was pure geog . which i din have. damnit.

sometimes, i wish there were real apple trees in singapore.
i really love apples. they have to be crunchy and fresh though . haha.

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired. - Jules Renard

2009-06-05T10:47:00.001+08:00

Going for LAST band performance later.
Hope i dun cry :(.
Shall update when i come back .

Don't be dismayed by good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends. Richard Bach

2009-06-04T20:32:00.004+08:00

Every man dies. Not every man really lives. William wallace

2009-04-20T21:58:00.002+08:00

u know what?
i think i have my own life to continue leading and i seriously thought about it.
its really high time to jus forget.

真正的麻醉自己，
到底需要多久。
挣扎在对于错，
黑与白，
爱和不爱之中。
身处于无边沙漠中。
我好像迷路了。

2009-04-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

i just have one thing to say

people often neglect the small things in life. but now i understand that when u lose a person, its forever and what u remember of that person are those small little things he/she does. it doesnt matter what they do. u just remember it. its so so painful to lose someone u love. the small things that we forget and tend to neglect are the only memories of a person when u lose them.For now, i would jus like to say . just one word:treasure. know how to treasure time u have with ur loved ones. for you never know how long more you have with them.

2009-03-16T19:07:00.000+08:00

if i said i din care about ur presence, i guess im jus lying to myself.

2009-02-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

i wanted to blog. den i didn't know what to write so i din wan to blog. den i knew what to write den i forgot. but since i started i shall not stop den.

today is valentine's day or waD i call chocolate day! yay.
happy happy. ate tons and tons of choco. hai.
den band. it was sucky. having to sit in de hall. where there is like almost no fan.
if only ms lai was dere. she would have ways to get a fan. :(

anw. its been long since i went out! any1 wans go out can jio mii. haha.

been a tough week for mii. to make a choice. and im glad i made it . hehe. but im happy . at least for now. for i have de best bunch of friends any1 could have in this world. :)

2009-02-01T13:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
feeling damn hyper today. good mood also. =)
cause. i had a gd slp and a gd dream. i wake up that time freaking happy. :)
WAHAHAAHAHAHHAA.

i already forgotten already. so. please i beg you. don't come back to my life. =x

2009-01-25T15:05:00.003+08:00

A letter to my friend.

dear friend,
i don't know what you are angry over. angry over mii not caring about you anymore?
or what. but b4 that. ask ur self. izin't this the way you treated mii these 3 years. izin't it.
i dunno. im like the one thats always at fault. always the 1 thats childish. always the 1 to say sorry.
i dun expect anything frm u anymore. i jus expect u and mii to be frens. frens that will nod head and smile when they meet. i dun expect anything to change back to last time. cause im tired. tired of being disappointed everytime.
anyway, i think you do have enough frens to go about. dun realli need mii? you got ur frens. i got my frens. im busy u're busy. jus forget about it.
i should jus burn away the paper stars huh. if u understand what stars im referring to.
fine then. jus hope for the best now. for seeing you happy everyday. makes mii happy enough to cont life. for all the love i can give you is all that i have given you. i have no more. jus forget about it. i really hope this is the last quarrel. =(

signing off with lots of love,
yong xiang

2009-01-11T10:51:00.002+08:00

been long since i last blogged. cause of my spoilt com. =.= z.

well, first week of school has been fun. but was veri stressed.=.= with the new maths teacher. that really pushes the stress level to another high level. zomg.=.= was like almost flooded with stuffs to do. only at about. 1st week of sch? O.O

had 2 new teachers. eng and maths.=.= zomg. seriously dun like the new eng teacher.=.= duper boring.

sometimes, i wonder izit that i owe u something or do you owe mii something. we don't ever seem to be on veri good terms huh! but well i treasure u alot alot. i wish that u will be my best fren for the rest of my life. and please please appear on my funeral =D mayb 50 years from now. i will die. but even in my coffin. i will rmb i will rmb of having u once as my best fren. i will and shall remember. for u are special to mii. =DDplease be happy. u not happy. makes mii not veri happy also. TSK.

2009-01-04T09:54:00.002+08:00

well, i suppose there is a secret deep deep down in each and everyone's heart. BAH. i also have 1 too and im going to share it here.

this secret is about special you.
i think we look perfectly fine on the outside. but on the inside, i feel agony and sadness.
its just. not working out.but well, nevermind. i jus want you to be happy. and every1 else around me to be real real happy. ok. jus like the new year msg i sent u . 365 more days. i keep a record of how mani days are left on my hp notes. i see it everyday. only 361 days left. bye my friend. i will rmb u always. for once appearing in my life.=D

didn't regret knowing u, seriously.

2008-12-24T22:39:00.002+08:00

WAHAHAAHAHAAHAA. 2ND POST OF THE DAY. suddenly feel lik spamming posts, cause i'm like in super good mood can. HAHA.

simply love. todays weather.HAHAHAHA.

tmr. going sentosa. den friday. go sentosa again. like. ZOMG.=.=
sunburnt pig. diao.

LALALA. CHRISTMAS EVE AND IM HOME. ALL ALONE AND MISERABLE. DAMN.

cnt help it lar.=x

2008-12-24T18:59:00.004+08:00

today went out to waste time.=.= shall not talk about it too much. =.=
den dey all came my house and baked some cheesecake. HAH. think it totally failed. HAHA.
my house sounded like. some. retarded old hse. in tones of theirs. =x. HAHA.bargh.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAQHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2008-12-24T00:09:00.004+08:00

new blogskin, new life. NEW YX!
like repeating this cycle like that sia. always sad. den happy den sad. den happy den sad den happy den sad den happy den sad. haiz. mayb tts just my life. =(

BAHBAHBAH. wad u all tink of my new blogskin huh. COMMENTS ON TAGBOARD PLS. =D
anw, i wan to share this cute foto wih u all.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. cute mii. OK NT TIS FOTO. ANOTHER 1

2008-12-21T23:52:00.001+08:00

mayb. i left u with too mani responsibilities.
i left u with too mani things that u cant exactly do .

2008-12-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

figured it out. why shld i even have deleted tt post. not worth it. u loser.

2008-12-21T00:16:00.003+08:00

i am angry. very angry with you.

i cant forgive you.
for blaming me anyohow when u yourself did nothing.
for treating me like nothing when i needed you to console me the most.
for making me hate u .

i know you won't feel a pinch even if u see this. but. i am jus going to write it out.
being with you is just like taking a rollarcoaster ride.going through ups and downs. just that the downs were more.but still, i enjoy. being with you cause. i know. u are a nice person.but all these. its really enough. i've said this alot of times. i wanna give up. i am going to give up. but. i jus cant.

i cant be best friends with a person without a heart. cause i am myself a veri emotional person.but,i tried to . i really tried to . change myself. to be oblivious like you . to be as ignorant like you. but i cant. im just not you. i tried my very best. to treat you the best. out of all my friends. but. its all futile.i cannot. i cannot. i cannot. i cannot give you up now. i keep saying that to myself.ah, its jus hard.

now, im just like a freak. a human without a true heart. a living zombie. like you. or mayb what i think of you. during the quietest of nights. i wished. i wished that u were there to talk my heart out with me.but. u were never dere. you never ever cared about how i felt. try recalling the last time. u sat down and chatted with me. about things that really mattered to me. and to my heart. to my feelings.

i think its enough said. u have letters from me . alot of them.but never was i so truthful about how i felt about u . and wad i think about you.the 200th post on my dearie blog was supposed to be reserved for u. praising our friendship. but now.

u mayb be my best fren, but im nt urs. tts sad. =)I never regretted knowing you as my best fren. but just let it end here.

2008-12-18T19:51:00.000+08:00

你终于也会还怕寂寞了。

2008-12-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

bargh. actually wanted to send up this post last night. bt was too lazy. =.=

sometimes, it realli agonizing when ur bestest fren of all best frens. dun actually listen to you talk your heart out. dun even want to listen i think.

nah, i shall keep them to myself them. =(

anw, i dun tink mr bestest fren will even visit this blog. =.=

how critical were you when hurting mii?

2008-12-12T20:56:00.002+08:00

i guess these 2 fossils must have been lovers. or twins. dey look so alike. =)

friends are more important to mii now. ok. dun try and ...

她在睡前哭泣。

2008-12-11T18:48:00.002+08:00

BARGH. HAHA. made up tis new word wih my gd fren. LOL. he had FARGH loll.
this old man mus have been so pissed if he knew he was taken a picture of . LOL.

anw, today went to the new side of jurong point. the new new de. the 1 tt is linked to jp. downstairs is shopping malll, upstairs is condo tt 1. yaya. OPEN LE LEH ZOMG.

den today went to walk wih bro =.= aft lunch wih mum.
its damn big.huge untill can die. zomg. bt nt much to shop de leh =x
haha.

永远的好朋友。

2008-12-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

damn cook picture.
it actually represents nothing. as in nothing. zomg

im actually missing u . =x

2008-12-07T19:53:00.002+08:00

arrrr, as reali drepressed last night. bt well. who doesnt get a lil emo tional sometimes.
sms-ed wih alfred. felt realli much much better . thnx alfred =D

没用的家伙。

2008-12-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

空虚，非常空虚。

no bdae cake for mii tis year =((

2008-12-05T19:26:00.002+08:00

losing control of myself already.

2008-12-05T18:14:00.004+08:00

成长

成长，大概是每个人必经之路吧。

我的成长，好像有点慢。

心灵上，我好像有那么一点点不成熟哦。

我想，年少轻狂，每个人都会迷惘。

迷惘于一切与重前的不一样。

但是。因该学会成长。

成长。

今天。去拍身份证照。

顿间，我觉得。我有必要长大了。

好像，走到悬崖前，想想人生的感觉。

想到了，我的人生想要和每个人不一样。

我想过我自己。非凡的人生，再也不想过千篇一律的生活了。

想必，活出自我。

才是人生的终极目标。

my bdae wish is to have a long long chat wih my gd frens, espically my best fren. =)

2008-12-04T23:57:00.001+08:00

LOL the expression. classical. HAHA.
anw, all of u shld try mc cafe de new drink.
the frosty mint frappe.mus drink the hot de latte. damn nice. haha.

go try.

cnt stop thinking of u

2008-12-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

RAWR. currently into black and white photos. whoever has nice photos. can send mii thru msn. HAHA.

mic spoilt. T.T

z
z
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madagascar was nice. zomg. reading a book now. tt predicts wads gonna happen in 50 years. ZOMG. damn cool. haha.

欲知过去因，今生受者实。预知未来果，今生做者实。

2008-12-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

ARGH.
new blogsong. GO LISTEN.

2008-12-02T19:08:00.000+08:00

RAWRRRRR. NICE NICE.=O

2008-12-01T20:01:00.003+08:00

LALALALALLA~
damn nice picture.
sometimes i truly marvel at the true beauty of nature.
its power and. its surprises.
mayb tts cus im a nature person.
i picture myself in 10 years to be having a stable job and enjoying life =D
surely there would be some form of art painting in my hse. well. i love art. like the picture . so damn pretty. WAHAHAHA.

looking foward to growing up. o.o

十年后我还会爱你吗？

2008-11-28T18:09:00.003+08:00

well, din blog for roughly. hmmmmmm 10 days? HAH.
was overseas for 5-6 days. den de rest were pure laziness. HAHA.
went to tis wonderful place called macau. haha. quite nice.

Day 1

left my house at arnd 8 den reached de terminal den waited for de plane to take off. was like =.= when we went to the service counter and a service lady gave us attitude tt sucked. haha. blah blah blah. i went and bought a chicken pie for breakfast. hungry ma.-.-
den checked in. slacked arnd the duty free shops. was like zomg bored. den i saw tis. cool place. where u can make your own stamps. as in those kind old emperor de chops. bt tis 1 tt u make is like on paper lar. its nice =) . i made 1 and found out it was a screwed up . =.= wadever. den i went and bought a bottle of mineral water. that was friggin $2=.= SIAN DIAO. haha. bt aiya airport ma bo bian=.=

yak yak yak. arrived at macau.
the airport is nt as nice as singapore bt who cares. i want the place nt de airport =.=
den i went to try out the toilet. was totally zomged out. the toilet is nice tilllllll. damn clean.haha. den i shuang . den blah blah. went to take cabs. my group was lik 8 ppl . so we needed 2 cabs =.=
den took de cap. somehow, macua is seperated into 2 islands . so the taxi crossed bridge. long long bridge. haha. den reached at the hotel. my mum ask mii TO PAY FIRST. den i was like =.= i only got 100 macau $ den she wants mii to pay $75 . zzz sian diao. haha.anw $75 macau money is abt $15 sing dollars. haha. nt tt ex lar.den zomg sian.

the adults went to check in. bt we even had to fake the hole check in =.= cus.we had 8 ppl . bt we only booked 3 deluxe rooms. each room was supposed to keep 2 ppl . bt aiya. so we had to act lo . HAHA. den i was too bored. went wih my bro and cousins to try out the toilet. LOL. then i got the shock of my life.
THE TOILET WAS THE BEST I EVER SEEN.
it was sooo nice and wonderful. haha. i was literally forced to go and try the toilet bowl. LOL. quite nice. blah blah blah. den i got the other shock of my life.
the soap dispenser is auto de! zomg. i was like HAHAHAH. den played for alot of times. HAHA.den was bored soon =.=got out and found out that dey were done. (very fast considered to times we went to genting)
happy happy went up to hotel room.=) it was nice. bt nt the nicest i ever seen. o.o
was eager to try out the toilet again. HHAA. den was quite pissed . that my room toilet was lousier than the one at the lobby. zzz. din have the soap dispenser. bt wadever. was happy enuf wih bathtub. HAH.aft tt as usual, when one gets down the plane would want to have a good bath in the damn bathtub rite@! den i filled up the bathtub and went in . haven even got my face wet den my mum shout to go eat something outside. =.= zomg sian diaoed.=.=.=.=.=.=.=
it was like 6 pm nia. but the whole place was like dark already. guess it was cause of the winter ba.o.o den we started wondering arnd searching for some shops to eat at. den DEY WERE ALL CLOSED. i also dunno y -.- den saw tis shop selling food lik sg de 煮炒. bt it was damn filthy. bt aiya . the whole street all the shops closed down den bo bian lo. we went in. den who knows. tt filthy and stinking shop.
actually has a second floor . zomg. haha . went up. was still irritated by the state of the shop =.= den ordered some food to eat. and another cool thing abt shops there.dey have this elevator for foods. cus of the second floor . the cook in the kitchen puts the food onto tis elevator den it brings the food to the second floor. damn cool. i was lik. O.O haha.
den den den .
aft eating. de adults wanted to go to casinos (like duhhhh)
den dey sent us back to a hotel on a taxi. den I HAD TO PAY AGAIN. zzzzzzz.
budden it was only $13 macau ( $13 macau= less den 3 sg dollars. $3 /4 = less than $1 sg dollar.) SO DAMN CHEAP LAR THE TAXI DERE.=.=

WAAAA. TTS THE END OF DAY 1 =.= tmr got time den update day 2. haha. lazy lar =.=

i did miss u when i was dere.

2008-11-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

BROOKE WHITE!! favourite. today i saw her got eliminated from the american idol. awwwwww man, so sad T.T

she realli damn beautiful lar. and her voice realli. melodious.
somemore. she touches all her audiences.
bravo. haha. i mean. in the american idol season 7 , i dun tink she would be de winner or the runner-up . but i tink she is the most special. most. connecting with her audience.

BLEAH BLEAH wadeverrrrr.
so bored lar. i hate holidays! zomg. but i hate schoold days also. zomg =.=

2008-11-17T18:30:00.003+08:00

WARGH! since its like the holidays. i have so much more time for posting. haha.
well. the pic.
POLAR BEAR slping. o.o i din relise animals needed to sleep too. haha. wad abt birds. do dey slp? do animals get dark rings too? o.o
well. i also jus woke up frm 4h nap
=x
haha. jus stoned jus now for 10 mins aft i woke up. dunno y
everytime i wake up also mus stone de lo. haha.
stone.
o.o wadever, haha. so much crap zzz.

我爱你。

anw , i found the answers!

Species	Average Total Sleep Time (% of 24 hr)	Average Total Sleep Time (Hours/day)
Brown Bat	82.9%	19.9 hr
Giant Armadillo	75.4%	18.1 hr
North American Opossum	75%	18 hr
Python	75%	18 hr
Owl Monkey	70.8%	17.0 hr
Human (infant)	66.7%	16 hr
Tiger	65.8%	15.8 hr
Tree shrew	65.8%	15.8 hr
Squirrel	62%	14.9 hr
Western Toad	60.8%	14.6 hr
Ferret	60.4%	14.5 hr
Three-toed Sloth	60%	14.4 hr
Golden Hamster	59.6%	14.3 hr
Platypus	58.3%	14.0 hr
Lion	56.3%	13.5 hr
Gerbil	54.4%	13.1 hr
Rat	52.4%	12.6 hr
Cat	50.6%	12.1 hr
Cheetah	50.6%	12.1 hr
Mouse	50.3%	12.1 hr
Rhesus Monkey	49.2%	11.8 hr
Rabbit	47.5%	11.4 hr
Jaguar	45%	10.8 hr
Duck	45%	10.8 hr
Dog	44.3%	10.6 hr
Bottle-nosed dolphin	43.3%	10.4 hr
Star-nosed Mole	42.9%	10.3 hr
Baboon	42.9%	10.3 hr
European Hedgehog	42.2%	10.1 hr
Squirrel Monkey	41.3%	9.9 hr
Chimpanzee	40.4%	9.7 hr
Guinea Pig	39.2%	9.4 hr
Human (adult)	33.3%	8 hr
Pig	32.6%	7.8 hr
Guppy (fish)	29.1%	7 hr
Gray Seal	25.8%	6.2 hr
Human (elderly)	22.9%	5.5 hr
Goat	22.1%	5.3 hr
Cow	16.4%	3.9 hr
Asiatic Elephant	16.4%	3.9 hr
Sheep	16%	3.8 hr
African Elephant	13.8%	3.3 hr
Donkey	13.0%	3.1 hr
Horse	12.0%	2.9 hr
Giraffe	7.9%	1.9 hr

2008-11-17T10:54:00.003+08:00

zomg. efffffing cute bear. haha. =)
well. life has been great for mii.
sry for all de emo-ness going around the place.
bt thnx for all tt cared. realli made mii feel much relived. hehe.
wargh! down wih a fever now. bt awwwwww, who cares. HAHA.

LALALALALA.

吃一堑，长一智。

2008-11-10T18:19:00.002+08:00

i lost u .
lost u as well.
i dunno . i feel so ... lost.
i dunno . i wan to die.
jus now. now. jus let mii die now. i dun wan to live anymore.
in tis wretched world tt wrecks my heart everytime.
if i've lost u my best fren. i can lose any1 in tis world.

i can. i seriously can.
i've given in so many times. i dunno whether i shld tis time.
seriously. everytime i've done. seems all wasted.
i wonder wad u treat mii as.
a fren, or a clown?
answer mii jus tell mii de damn answer.

i tink i want a break. a break frm all these.
shld i give in tis time? cus i know u wouldn't . i know i will end up being de one.
to be de one to say sorry.
i dunno.

i cried out loud last night.
bt seems like the echo of my cry din even reach de doorstep of ur heart.

jus end it..end my misery

2008-11-09T17:51:00.001+08:00

well, thought abt it. over my problem.
ironic answer. bt well. mayb jus for tis once.
i shld be angry . or i will be angry.
if its the end. at least i dun regret. at all.
mayb ba. mayb someday when i learn abt de truth .
i will be happy.
someday. mayb b4 i die ba. someday.

forget,forget & forget. thnx huh. =)

第一次真正放弃了。

2008-11-08T18:13:00.002+08:00

i dunno man, so sick and tired of it.
im feeling de exact same way. the exact same way i was feeling like 2 years plus back.
nvr did i expect tis. i dunno man.

little fren, if u got tis little puny conscience on u . mayb we can remain frens.
bt. if dun have. im jus gng to give up liao lar. once and for all. tired.

2008-11-05T23:06:00.001+08:00

feel lik giving up our friendship man. its jus making mii suffer loads and loads .
its never ending.
god! spare mii frm tis agony.
emo.

2008-11-04T19:10:00.002+08:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
-of cus i do . but just that. i prefer to share them with my frens so dey are nt realli secrets . HAHA.

2. Would you fall in love with a guy. younger than you?
-YES. OF CUS I WOULD . GAYS ARE ALL LIK TIS . =.=

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
-like duhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sch. impt.must go . HAH.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
-CHOCOLATES LAR. I TINK I WILL DO SOMETHINGLIK OPRAH SHOW DE BIG GIVE. HAHA.

5. Would you love your ex again?
-i don't have leh. =x

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-both at the same time. can ma. haha

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:
背叛
沉默玩具
superwomen
super sunshine
知己
病态
AIYA LAZY LAR. Z.

8. If you're single and your crush is already attached, what would you do?
-WAIT FOR de crush to break up LOL.. so evil tsk.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
-Of course

10. What makes you angry?
- angry? wads tt . haha

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
-wad if i die tmr?

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?
-ELSEN ALFRED KOK KEONG BLAH BLAH BLAH LAZY AGAIN.Z.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
-to make de best of de frigging time i have left on this freaking world.

14. Single or attached?
-Single

15. What are your favorite colors?
-bo

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
-ya. most probably.

17. What would be the 1st thing you say/shout/scream when you've reach the top of Mount Everest?
-breathe in hard and smell de air. feel de world.

18. What are you doing now?
-slacking? although deres o lv tmr. -x

19. Do you prefer chocolate drink or coffee?
-coffee. although i like to eat chocolate more. bt i tink chocolate drinks are too sickening for mii.haha

20. 5 people I have tagged: k

2008-10-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

放弃你吗？
迷惘，迷惘，迷惘。

2008-10-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, decided to like revive my blog now again. but, i've decided to like type in standard English as far as i can. can help to improve ENGLISH . =)

ANW , i've come up with this damn cool plan for the graduation day next year. needs to start now. =x periodically , a secret. HHA.

anyway, now my note on my handphone is "be yourself". ya. haha . i always felt it was very important to be you yourself . in everything. in facing things. everyone has problems of their own . but i am sure . being yourself is vital to solve every problem.

seriously touched by this song by brooke white lar. its like. very very nice . BUT, i still like david archuleta more ok. he is cuter than mii i admit. tsk.

anyway, i don't get the point that american idol is so so so much nicer than singapore's wadever idol. its like im watching everyday now and its really nice. their singers are truly much much better.

不在逃避了。逃避你。

2008-09-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

well.
1 last post b4 i close down this blog.
i also dunno y.
i jus sudddenly feel lik closing down tis blog.
mayb its cus.
i dun feel lik writing all my problems up here.
bt i cnt help it too.
so de best way is to close down this blog.
hha.
i also dunno y . seriously.
sometimes.
i jus feel so restless abt blogging.

让我爱你最后一结。
我不想再痛下去了。

2008-09-25T22:56:00.001+08:00

My Angel And Friend

by Smile

I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.

Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.

You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.

I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.

You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.

It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.

Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!

So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!

2008-09-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

soar and fly ppl. soar and fly.

im going to do jus tt.

4 a.
here i come for u .
chinese bio e maths. erm..... any other
LOL.
im sure. i will soar and get wad i wan.

mrs you said something today. i tink its quite true.
she said. i cnt believe how some ppl can get 1/ 25 or 0 /25 u know.
dun u tink its nt fair. some ppl. go home and sweat and pespire and go crazy abt how dey are gng to finish their huge pile of hw. den dere are some. tt brings home de hw. and sit in front of de com. and dun do de hw.
den she said.
im sure those who have been doing their hw. will pass de a maths tis time.

hope i will pass.=)

u take ur best friend off the pedestal.im so proud of myself. i've done it. =)

2008-09-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

well, lack of love huh.
love fives u de power. to do everything.
in tis world.
i cnt survive without love.
neither can ani of u , my readers.
love between frens are de most impt for mii now. and i nid dem. HHA.
so ppl.
SHOW MII U LOVE MII IF U DO. BY TAGGING. ITS NT TT HARD TO BRIGHTENED MY DAY
!.

痛哭相抱

2008-09-21T09:42:00.002+08:00

well. i guess de hit frm elsen. broke my tears glands. i cnt cry. even if i wan to . nvm ppl. den i shall nt cry again.

its nt like i want it.

2008-09-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

see. im bored. tt baby in tt picture is too.
how i wish im nt bored now. its realli veri boring when no 1 even toks to u on msn. =.=
somemore. also nth to do on9. tsk tsk.

anw. im gng to be so busy tis wkend.
sat. got capt ball.
sun chiong alot of hw + revision . haiz
so fast exam!
ltr fail.
die.

原来一直在追逐着的是快乐。
并不是食物。
快乐离我而别之后，一切似乎不再重要

2008-09-18T19:00:00.002+08:00

im happy u know. jus for this once. im veri veri happy. realli deep down happy. and may i nvr. to be sad again.
anw i got tis slpitting headache tt sux totally. zzz. anw. today went old folk's home. i feel so sad whenever i go tis kind of place. cus of. dey all look my grandpa. tt jus died. bt well, shldnt't dwell on de past nimore. wastes time. i shld look forward to my life. and be happy always. as mani of u wan mii to be. =))

2008-09-15T21:53:00.001+08:00

jus let mii suffer silently, will ya.
mayb de world. would be a warmer place after i die.
how i wish.
i die.
now.
=)

2008-09-15T19:05:00.002+08:00

well, i guessss its time.
i shld sacrifice .
to end our friendship.
i expected tis u know. all these. bugging mii.
its nt lik i want it.
mayb its btr for us to be. frens again.
b4 we realli become best frens again.
its btr den u and mii.
quarreling again.
awwww man.
i guess i have to .
kill our friendship.
for de sake of u and mii.
its nt im veri great or wad.
its jus .
i tink i will suffer much much more.
if we quarrel. trust mii.
i tried it.
cus no 1 treasures mii at all
=)

忍痛削骨。

2008-09-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

well, its been long since i do anything concerning photography le. i used to love photography alot de. bt without a nice and gd digital cam. i gave up. bt i seriously wan to learn some. photo taking lar. to mii phototaking is a form of. stopping time. in tt precise moment . precise second. to mii . life is as short as it can be. so i would lik to store memories of my whole life. so tt i can see dem when i grow old. =)

welll, slept for lik 4 hours today . now quite energetic. WAHAHA.

i wan to be happy.

2008-09-13T00:20:00.003+08:00

i lost de ability to cry.
i dun wan to lose it.
its kinda. ironic. since i like to cry so much last time.
and cnt cry now.
i realli dunno man.
dun ask mii y .
dun ask mii y.
cus i realli dunno.
i wan to cry.
all these sadness acculmate in mii.
and i jus cnt let it out.
mayb i can cry tonight.
bt wad i wish for.
is a best fren shoulder and ears to listen.
looks lik.
i wun get it.
cus no 1 treasures mii at all.
=)

该放弃了吧。黄永祥

2008-09-09T21:27:00.006+08:00

1. Your relationship with him/her (KOK KEONG) is?

alot leh. master-pet relationship. senior-junior relationship. friends relationship.

2. Your five impression of him/her?

first impression was of cus tt he was damn fierce. bt aft knowing him i know. his is . cute shuai nice, HAHAHA. he got big boobs and he doesnt wear underwear at home.

3. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?

eh bully mii lo.
4.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?

i forgot . was something tt made mii cry lar, either touched by his words or was a scolding

5.What kind of guy/girl he/she like?

hmmmmmm.girl lik yiling.? LOL bt must be veri independant. as he told mii. haha.

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will?

i rather dun wan. ltr i die of lack of blood.
7. If he/she becomes your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be:

LOLL. A LOT a lot. improve in his behavior. dun bully ppl so much . epically his pet. shave his ugly mustache. go for more facials and NT once per 3 months. dun ever cut any more Wilbur pan hairstyle. h aha.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:

wont lar. at most dun tok for 2 years nia ma . =x=x

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

i made a dumb and sily mistake tt made him angry.

10. The most desired thing that you want to do for him/her now is?

EHHHH. BLOOD CLOT. LOLL.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?

veri nice. bt nt to mii. =(

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?:

fat? idiotic. stupid. bt nice. =)

13. The characters you love of yourself are:

=x

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:

veri. like to go overbroad sometimes.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

the ideal person in my heart. =)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

=)))) love (<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3)^porkies

17.List 10 ppl to do de rest of de quiz!

1) DEREK

2) KOK KEONG

3) ELSEN

4) ALFRED

5) WEIJIE

6) KAIQIN

7) DARREN ONG

8)VINCENT

9)CHIEN WEI

10) CYNTHIA

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?

CHINGYEE LO. i heard he picked up cooking jus for her. awwwwww. and dey are on a dinner date now. o.o

19. Is no.9 a male or female?

male LOL.

20. If no.7 and 8 are together, will it be a good thing?

eh bo link LOL. bt i tink darren will jus bboy den vincent jus zib-ing over dere ba. dey wun tok ba HAHA. darren scared of strangers ma . =x

22. What is no.2 studying about?

IT SECURITY. future security guard huh. bt i tink he doing quite well baaa

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ?

o.o i hardly chat wih him de lar. he dun like to tok to mii also . haha. bt. best fren huh. =x

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?

OMG OMG. zibi songs. ok lar. he like band songs lar duh =.= his hp truckloads of dem pls.

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?

yes. dun realli know his real life de . bt i know he got a wife named elsen den got mii as family pig. den dey share mii wih another owner kok keong. bt elsen has tis hair growing on him. called mao mao. budden kok keong has chien wei as papa. +++ kok keong has alfred as his son. so conclusion he has 6 family members all tgt. phew.

26. Will you woo no.3 ?

ooooh . of cus lar. LOL.

27. How about no.7 ?

eh tis 1 i also wan. i <3

28. Is no.4 single?

YES YES CAN GO GET HIM GALS. HE despo . HHA.

29. What is the surname of no.5 ?

WALAO ROFL. FONG.

30. What's the hobby of no.4?

STUN. =.= he like to dance, go out, games lo.

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?

YES. bt i everytime also see wj beating chien de. chien ke lian lo.

32)where is no.2 studying at?

SP.he has alot holes on his face. bt is still nice. =)

33. Talk something casually about no.1?

he doesnt wan to tell mii how mani sibling he has. zzz. bt he like to di siao mii and is currently feeding mii till i grow to AT LEAST 200kg so tt he can sell mii.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 ?

omg walao. =.= develope feelings. waste time nia. bt i know alot alot ppl developed feelings for him . AHAHHA.

35. Where does no.9 live at?

near jp haha.

36. What colour does no.4 like?

vibrant colours? tink so .

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

nt best frens lar. bt still ok frens lo.

38. Does no.7 like no.2 ?

LOL . like ! of cus like. number 2(kok keong ) owes number 7 some pretzels too. number 7( darren ) loves mii too ok. haha

39. How do you get to know no.2 ?

oooh. in band senior of mine. since i was sec 1. or shld i say. ever since de day i was born. i looked upon him as my master le. after all these years of torment and toture i still stick by him all night and day. hahaha. tis proves pigs are loyal ok.

40. Does no.1 have any pets?

YES LAR. im his pet. cnt u see?! idiot.

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

NONO.

42. Is no.10 tall?

erm average ba. bt . if she stands on all 8 legs tt she has. shld be taller den mii . WOWOWOHAHAHA.

2008-09-07T19:30:00.002+08:00

well little boy.
u seem to know mii inside out, knowing every little stunt that i actually do . bt in actual fact. u dun know how i feel deep down in my heart. abt everything. i prefer to act happy in front of u . i prefer nt to cry in front of u . i prefer to always be tt crazy ass in front of u . all these. i do dem on purpose.tts cus i dun wan to be sad in front of u .

i have always always treated u as my best fren. bt i dunno wad u tink abt tis. cus only u make mii happy. only u make mii sad. and i call such a person tt controls my emotions, my best fren. dey say , a best fren deserved of u doesn't make u cry. bt i do cry alot. for u . for things. tt makes my experience more... real. i mean best frens are supposed to sad over some things. and well. i cry alot .

bt wel well well. 1 and 1 quater more years and its over. i always tink abt our future as frens . will we seperate? or wad. i dunno. bt given. ur style. i can roughly get it. =) all de best.

我可为你。

2008-09-05T22:18:00.004+08:00

fat ppl are de cutest as always. ^^ fat ppl realli rox lo. dey are nice. living example leh. haha.

today . went sentosa wih MY clique haha. mainly of elsen kk kkq ry huini cheryl jianxing benlee aiyin magdelene zibi weikiat zhenyang DEREK.

anw. de trip wad veri veri fun. mayb u all can refer to kok de blog for more info, ahah.
during de trip i tok-ed to derek alot. so i knew him btr. right derek . x)
bt most of de time i was happy. dere was tis time when i was bathing den de door cnt lock. zzz den i have to use my hand to support. BT DEN. de distnce too long cnt support . so i ended up using my legs to block de damn door. den my legs pain aft tt. zzzzzz. irritating. haha.
anw. i din get my chance to cycle at all. T.Tso sad. HAHA nvm next time we go somewhere wih bikes den ride. tt time will have alfred and weijie le .^^++ alot more ppl. haha.

and i <3>
izit tt i dun know u tt well? or am i troubling u .=)

2008-09-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

well. i wan to be called mr happy from now on. dun u tink mr happy looks lik mii??
it also has a big body and has a giant smile on its face. same as mii sia. =)

i know i know.
im nt supposed to be emo.
im nt supposed to cry.
cus of de promise btwn u and i.
im forced to be de 1 tt im forced to be.

haha. i can totally when some ppl are forced to cry out of desperation lar.
anw. long since i last cried. i doubt i will cry soon. unless nearing exam.
nvr had i hugged my best frens and cry my heart out cus im nt supposed to do so.
well. deres no nid for mii to do tt now. FOR.
I AM MR HAPPY ! +)

well. de promise still applies i tink.

2008-09-03T23:16:00.002+08:00

well. mayb i shld get lost. even though tis WAS my land huh. hehe. nvm if u dun get mii. =)

well. today was zomg boring. haha . bio was veri veri hard. i tink im gng fail my bio SPA. haha its realli hard de graph consist of curves and lines. and have to predict ur self . walao die. haha.

anw aft was band. sian . band is lik getting worse and worse . i also dunno y. bt today 7th night was nicer i swear. haha. realli my hair got stand at de bar dunno wad. bt we seriously nid to work on de 3rd and 4th page ( for eupho score) more lar. realli veri -.-.

anw. i can see tt u are getting tired of mii le lar. fine . hehe.

even if i cry, no 1 would care. =)

2008-09-02T23:09:00.001+08:00

im sick. im scared.i feel helpless.
and no 1 is dere to help mii T.T.
and i have to entertain some dumb ass. irritating.

sometimes i jus do things for myself. mayb i shld jus detetch frm u .

2008-09-01T11:50:00.002+08:00

wad is life aniwae.=.=
is it jus 80 years of living on tis dumb retard tooty EARTH.
or is it fufilling ur role on tis earth and do some freaking thing tt is meaningful. to ur family. ur frens. ur loved ones. and ur best fren.
i wish. i can jus die at an nt so old age. dun die at wad freaking 90 years old. i will be old and suffering most probably.
hehe. i wish i can be so damn cute like forever. whole life. well well.
nt so gd to brood over meaning of life. cus u shall nvr get an answer. all well. i tink de best . is to treasure now.b4 i jus die tmr lik tt. bang! dead. HAAH.

2008-08-31T01:05:00.002+08:00

well, i always believed in fate. destiny. this kind. nt really into things as religious. bt more of my own thinking. ^^ after all im de god of my own life. haha.

aniwae. update. tis week was veri eventful. full of things to do . too ma fqan to post.
anw. yesterday i went wih vincci to watch wall.e . which was damn freaking nice lar. u can nvr get enuf of it. so mus go watch.

well i jus dun get some ppl expect mii to be in a good mood all the time. tsk. who dey tink dey are. irritants. i burn all ur asses in hell den u all know.=)

生命就是如此短暂。

2008-08-26T22:30:00.001+08:00

CMON KOK KEONG JY JY JY. MUS WORK HARD. IF NT. I DUN CARE U
LOL.. HAHA. I BC U IF U FAIL JAVA!. I LET U BC IF U PASS JAVA.ROFL.

2008-08-26T19:01:00.003+08:00

some days, its jus better to set ur expectations low. i tink today is one of those days. its hard meeting those high expectations i set for myself each and every single day. i cnt cope. i tink. i wan to be happy. somehow. jus happy.im disappointed lar. i dunno y. alot things bugging mii.

anw thnx to all those frens tt are helpiung mii cope on huh. i love u all .=) <3

你开心我就吧。暂且就这样吧。

2008-08-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

well, guess i was wrong huh. u are still tt inconsiderate. forget it lar. i dun feel a thing. numb . feeling-less already.=)
i shld be happy shldn't i? its a happy ending. for u . =) well. de old saying goes by, if u are happy i am too. i feel tt way. bt when u are happy. im nt.u jus dun get it.

hope u can slp well wih ur new teddy bear tonight.=)

2008-08-20T22:39:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAE ELSEN YONG CHENG JIE.

A special colour for a special person like. u .

cheng jie ar cheng jie. nth much to say. all would be said in my letter. XD.
best frens forever? haha.i wish. -.-

aniwae. been a long time since i posted. so i might as well say some things .
its been so long because. my grandpa jus died and i was busy. as simple as tt.
ok jolly well. i did well for my CT and im happy wih my marks. somehow.

2008-08-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

okok. i del my last post le. its kinda like unhappy lor. and since i made tis promise wih cheng jie. i shall nt break it TOO OFTEN haha.

im happy today . bt was damn pek chek in de morning aniwae. to summarise it up. now my com is in my room le. YAY. haha.

aniwae yestersday, i did a damn paiseh thing. i took bus frm my uncle hse. wanting to go to jurong point.den i took tis bus 246. dere at the thingy write boon lay ma so i took tt bus. den when i go onto de bus. dere was tis banglah. he asked de bus driver whether tt bus lead to jurong point ? den de bus driver shook his head. den i was like. OMG. den i bo bian ma. cannot paiseh myself. so i act calm den wait till de bus reach lakeside mrt den i jus go off. LOL. din wan to bear de agony of seeing whether de bus went to jp anot.-.-

aniwae. today is a happy day . i got my shoes. LIKE FINALLY . ahahahah.

2008-08-06T21:40:00.002+08:00

wadever it has been,
best frens we have been.
jus because
my love for our friendship is greater than anything in de world

haha. some nice nice words. i make myself de leh. haha. i tot of dem when i was bathing.-.-

LOL. aniwae. tis week is such a fine week lar. everything is nice.periods are short. reporting times are late. national day got bazaar no nid study . MUWAHAHAHAHAHA. i totally loving tis week lar! HAHA.

BT, next week onwards got common test liao. -.- *thunder strikes
sian diao. nid to start studying now. soon. bt im not. gg .com. most worried abt my chemistry. cannot fail leh .T.T so worried. tskkkk.

ANIWAE. CMON PPL OUT DERE WE ARE GOING TO OWN DE WORLD. HARDSHIP CNT KILL US. HEHE.

cant u jus be a puny litle bit nicer to mii? =)

2008-08-03T21:31:00.004+08:00

worthless piece of shit huh.
so much all for asking mii to do it. wadever. freaking ppl. haha.

i also dunno y i whenever i blog i jus feel angry
ok wad ever
aniwae. toking abt my weekend. i spent all de time outside .
sat. band performance.disastrous.
den captainball+ badminton+ catching+ice and water + sleeping.
was fun. and tired lar! kns.-.-

den today went to bugis wih derek, sotong and kok. VERI FUN. de food dere damn nice lar. nice till i regret nt buying more. tsk.

tags replies:
KOK KEONG: kok keong sux!!
CHERYL: if nt leh. -.- hahahahaha. ok lar.
GUIN: u look porky too wih ur porkrinet.
SHERYL: i look like i din see u ? ROFL. HAHAHAHA. i saw u too. veri pretty huh. HAHA.

2008-07-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

kns. im damn hell by by someone u . u always lik tt de leh always demand for more than wad u are supposed to get. do u realli tink u are de allmighty king.? wadever crap. im seriously pissed by ur dumb ass attitude. tis is nt de first time lar. WTH.

+++ hearing so mani complains frm others abt u also makes mii only to ponder whether u realli are tt bad anot. nt only mii ok. alot others also complaining liao.

hell idiot.

waste my time.

我对你没呢么好只因，你太计较了。
想想吧。我被你气得哑口无言。

2008-07-28T22:35:00.001+08:00

walao i realli damn tired ppl. jus here to post. bye .

LOL.

2008-07-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BDAE DARREN LEE. !! XD

ok im happy now. we won de record challenge!! quite unexpected. de media corp ppl friday told mii BP de ppl run 30 s while we run 40s nia. kns. i tot it was reall. bt den. we still won. HAHA. pro seh. haha aniwae we did broke de world record and my damn name is gng to be in de book! fun sia. i was first 20 to run for our sch lar. damn fun. every1 damn high tt time. den i heard ppl shouting my name +)) dere was pork and yx. ANIWAE. thnx for shouting mii name. MR GOVIND also cheer mii lar. pls . first time see him so high. haha. he once cheer every1 turn out to be faster 1 . dunno y .

dere was tis part whr mr govind promised no dentention for a week if we won den whole sch hiong lar. damn cool. first time see fuhua so united. first time see so mani ppl respond to mdm oen. first time. im enjoying fuhua spirit. haha.

aniwae. next week common test liao. chiong study ar!!! my bio a1 e maths a1
AIM
haha
im sure i can.i tink i can means i can. =))))))))))))

我们之间的裂痕日渐扩大。

2008-07-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

yay. im in a good mood today!. therefore i wun curse and swear and scold ppl and be emo today. jus cus im happy. its rare nowadays tt im happy . haha. and im happy today.

today was boring. PE was duper fun. its was full of crap -.-

den el was slacking . i spent almost all de time reading narnia. its interesting lar. haha. den HCL was slack. i was like lunching on cheryl big supply of food lar.-.- dam lot can. dunno whr she get all these $$ to buy this kind of things. haiz.

aft recess was a maths. i had so much fun exploring de worlds of tan grpahs. o.o
mrs you say my curves im prove le now aceptable. YAY. im happy lol. hahahahahaha
humans. haiya wad can i say. mr fong has no discpline over his classes at all lar. its like jus tok tok tok . den he angry 1 min aft tt ppl tok tok tok again. wadever lar he . weak teacher. haha.
den e maths. boring. aft tt was cme. which was super fun. ms wong always goes crazy during cme lesson and act cute like mad. haha.

aft lessons. i went for lunch den a maths retest. DE RETEST WAS stressing. haha. i got 32/35. YAYAYAYA. -.- tsk. i could have gotten full marks pls. my -1 i wrote as 1. kns. make mii lose 3 marks. if nt i would have met my goal and score full marks le . zz. nvm i no nid retest le at least. haha. make mii happy. YAY.

aniwae. deres concert tis sun and tt is making mii happy cus im joining de record challenge also lar. i hope fuhua wins. HHA.den ownage ar! aha huat ar! -.- zi high.lololololool.

aniwae.im happy today =)

2008-07-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

不知道我为什么那么的懦弱。那么的烂。

他人随随便便的一句话就足以让我痛彻心扉，痛。

我不懂，不懂为什么。

越是亲近的人越是这样。

哭，好像都没用了。

笑，发自内心的笑，很少了。

或许或许，我太笨了。或许吧。

你们这些聪明人，到底有懂什么呢。

默默耕耘，不知为了谁。

dun ask mii wad is happening to mii ok. i dun get it too. =)
a life must be full of smiles. and im glad to try my best to bring it to ppl. haha.
kok keong <3 ok. haha .

我高兴得恨。

2008-07-21T22:09:00.002+08:00

zzz. ok tis post no pic. i jus cnt seem to upload de pic i wan . kns. 0.0
today was quite an ok day. it was jus abit boring. haha . i jus had fun during chem lesson. de rest were boring. chem lesson was fun . we got to play wih hydorgen peroxide and create a minature volcano =x. it was jus plain fun. haha.

im realli tired now. haha im going to slp early and work hard hard tmr. zzzzz. everyday will be impt. for mii and u and u to be closer frens and also for my studies.

JY YX

不要再装了。

2008-07-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

well, i love tis picture. its like i like de words more lar. LOL. haha.it jus speaks abt wad i tink now. hehe.

anw, i went jogging in de morning today wih zibi. which he was late and made mii wait for 20 mins. =((. idiot. haha. den we went to NTU to jog. we jogged a round first. den walked a round. den we explored ntu haha. it was fun. we practically jus slacked and chat chat chat abt band ppl and all those gossips. haha. who we dun like who we like. practically everything in band. WAHAHA. it was fun. veri long got some1 even toked to mii for so long. i feel lik more relaxed and charged lor. i was tired of studying ma b4. i jus feel more charged up now. ^^ im going to chiong again. haha . thnx zibi!

aft tt we went to de market . i buy bread and apples. haha den walked zibi home den took bus come bac my own hse.haha. den went out shopping.LOL. so busy huh. =_=.
den afternoon got a veri veri bad headache. i tink it was due to de weather. so i jus slacked on a bed for de whole afternoon . din wan to move aniwhere. haha.

bearings. im so going to own u . someday. u die to mii. HAH. im going to do my veri veri best for de e maths test on thurs day . i dun care liao chiong chiong chiong!. ^^

im so going to start preparing for ppl's bdae liao. HAHA. ppl who are in october nov sept. mus start now. ^^ all my good frens is end year bdae de. same as mii. rite. haha.

ok im going to get rid of my headache now. i go slp liao. XD. nites ppl dere reading my blog.
how i wish i knew who u were ( MAYB U COULD LET MII KNOW BY JUS DROPPING A TAG HUH. )

烦。

2008-07-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

u know sometimes. on de air con and jus slack dere . its damn comfortable. tt was wad i did today. den suddenly my father came home and shocked mii . totally. haha. i quik off bt he knew it lar. jus nagged. haha , im jus too nice. aniwae. after 6 hours going to run wih zibi at nus dere . HAHA. i jus wan to slaCK. and feed turtle nia lor. dun realli wan to run.=x haha .

give mii a choice man. i dun wish for tis to happen. another quarrel. =)

nites everybody. sleep tight and sweet dreams.

2008-07-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

dere was tis one time. i went to slp. seriously wanting to die frm a heart attack when i was in sleep. jus like some other freaks who died. i did nt. only waking up next morning to find tt my body intact and i was nt dead. i was depressed. y was i nt dead?! bt i knew de meaning slowly. i live for a purpose and tt is to spread love and happiness amonst ppl. and to prove to myself tt im worth hard work.when dere wiuld bejus tis day. i realli die. i hope i jus die peacefully. somehow.

haha. thnx aniwae all those for ur concern. its jus a maths test. i should nt get so discouraged by it lar pls.i shld lik seriously use my time on. e maths next week and own my class. hehe. lets hope i can har. its nt easy. zzz.

放弃，不是唯一的路。我不用去走它。看看人生。打宽心胸，接受失败。大概是比较好的路吧。

我没那么笨。

2008-07-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

well, i guess im jus an idiot. always . time n time i fail again and again. i always manage to find excuses for myself. i guess i jus dun wan to admit to the fact tt im nt working hard enuf. bt i do have to say, im proud of myself tis year at least. to be able to improve and change my attitude towards learning. its time to do wad i can and lik. do my best. i shld nt find excuses animore. and be prepared to face results even i get lousy. i only have myself to blame. jus nt trying hard enuf.
alot ppl alrdy said tt to mii (actually jus my mum ) bt i jus dun wan to admit. given tt im lagging behind ppl in de first placee. i shld work even harder. mayb its time. to pay attention to my studies.=)

i jus feel so depressed whenevr i get tests tt realli marks are nt nice at all. i jus disappoint every1
every1 tt expects mii to do well. and my frens. i also dunno. y all of u are so clever. tskk.it sometimes. gives mii even more pressure under de immense pressure. cnt believe it.

我真的不知道要做什么。我迷惘了。

2008-07-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

T.T
i hate u lar. nvr tt nice har.

aniwae. deres a maths test tmr and im tired. i dun care liao go slp liao . ma fan sia. zzz. always lik tt. test test test.pek chek.

well, i still do love u . bt mayb nt as much ba. it takes time to see the real side of u huh. T.T

oh well. nth to tok abt i go study. =0

我不要了。

2008-07-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

urghhh.
utterly stressed. i wan to quit a rep le. dun wan do le . so stressed. tsk.
cnt finished de hw. ugly curves.
den de bio teacher sux. waste my time. so bored. -.-
cnt help it tt i nid to live up to expectations of so many. almost all of my teachers. my parents. my classmates. every1. its tirin. -.-

你还是最重要的。

2008-07-12T23:22:00.002+08:00

ever wondered how life after death would be? i though abt tis problem. and found it to be fun. no more stressful bio project. no more trigo. no more anything . no more dota stress. no more elsen. no more problems. feel lik dying lar.if only i could realli die. tt might be a nice place.u know, someday. im jus going to die and cross over . and jus disappear. and no 1 would care. die pls. i wan to die.

bt everything is always nt as wanted. so i might jus live on, mayb to feel more sorrow. and also mayb to feel some love. hehe.

死亡的边界，就在眼前。内心想着不要跨过去。外表却非常相死。你来救我吧。cj

2008-07-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAE DEAN! PLS WORK HARDER DEN EVER NOW.

welllll, finally updating lar. i was so lazy to update for the past few days. hmmm lets see. i spent the last few days quite meaningfully? i played most of the time. nt forgetting abt my sch work den also. i went to get some chocolate for myself and some books. feel so happy =)

aniwae. i dunno y i feel so stressed up nowadays in sch. i was practically mad when sch time today. i went abt copying work and collecting books and copying chem and listening and drinking water all at the same time. -.- make mii almost go mad. ZZZ.

dunno y leh i tink sch is getting tougher and worst nowadays. veri bad. im lazy to work too. bt too bad. haha i have an aim. and tis aim will lead mii to wad i wan. wad i wan will lead mii to my future. so if i wan a bright future.i mus get wad i wan and fufill de aim . so mus work hard. ZZZ.

aniwae. the pic is nice so i took it off the net. HOPE. veri long since i ever had this feeling. veri lost nowadays. dun realli know the meaning of living. how i wish i can go taiwan soon, i also dunno y , jus feel lik going dere and rest myself. haiz. dunno wad im tokin also.

aniwae. tmr is chinese oral.未雨绸缪liao. no nid scared. HAHA. i tink i will still be nervous by then lor pls. tsk.

OH YA. jus now i saw alfred on tv, so cute huh. act shy in front of the camera. LOL. veri funny. hehe. hope dey like win de next round, if dey win .MUWAHAHAHAH. fun liao . HAHA. so sian

give me hope pls? jus give me some hope.

2008-07-06T23:11:00.006+08:00

mayb its jus tis way. its jus our way of communicating wih each other. sometimes u are jus tt nice. bt sometimes, u jus make mii feel lik killing myself. bt tts it. i have to admit. im mad.
finally rite?

i dunno lar. dun wanna think. the boat goes straight when it goes to the harbour aniwae. worse come to worse, i jus gorge on chocolate. -.- mayking mii unpleased is nt easy. bt changing it bac is even harder. haiz.

aniwae. smiling is am impt part of life. it will porolong ur life too. so , a smile a day keeps sadness away rite. so smiles. =)

我和你的感情，就像风一般。事儿强劲，时而懦弱。我真得不懂。我税服我自己相信是老天爷是对每个人公平。真想是。我在骗自己。

2008-07-04T23:07:00.003+08:00

well, i jus feel as calm and straight as tt horizon over dere now, all nice and comfy. hehe . sometimes its jus better to treat the ones u love worse, cus when u treat dem too gd. u jus dun feel gd.aniwae, tmr got band and im nt looking foward to it . haha ok lar. still quite looking foward cus deres no sec 1 ma shiok ar. =x as in no sec 1 can play harder pieces ma. hahah.

i suddenly miss kok keong. so long nvr call him to tok le. so long nvr tok le.. nth to tok le ba. haizzzz. arrrrrrr, feels so terrible. haiyo. tsk tsk tsk . i wish we could tok on some day. haha .

when i tink of u , i jus feel lik being in a cradle and being comforted . feels so nice huh. aughhhh, how i wish to become a baby again, can play de push up push down de thingy tt carries the baby. veri shuang de. ^^

u are nt my best fren, no u are nt

2008-07-03T19:17:00.005+08:00

lalalalalalaalala. today is such a happy day.im jus happy ok. hehe dun ask mii y cus i dunno too. hehe.sometimes i feel like im de dumbest thing on earth. mayb i shld be cleverer. muwahahaha. feel lik dying now arrrgh. so tired. so happy tt tmr is short day. ^^

就让一切风风雨雨，像沙滩的沙，树上的叶，地上的灰， 随风而去。然现在的友情像风一样，川川不熄。

2008-07-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

arrrrr. isnt tt thing cute. haha. nature is so wonderful. haha.
ok shall update on my recent stuff. everyday of sch is fun for mii now somehow.
chemistry new teacher rawks, i like lor. i pay more attention lor at least. haha. den ms wong nvr come for 2 days liao also dunno y. bt shiok sia. ^^
chinese oral coming. haiz . lbk jus spends 1 hour + on oral everyday , asking qns tt no 1 answer. chinese lessons are a bore. haiz.-.-
and i seriously. hate tt 1 tt is saying mii behind my back. u better stop huh. who do u tink u are. dun even dare to say in front of mii. stupid ass dog. high iq. low eq huh. lousy ppl are lik tt
.nvm den toking abt u being a sucker is boring. haha.jus a reminder.u are jus a nobody, even though u are top 10 of the whole sch.

cj rocks.

2008-06-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. sux.sch jus start 1 week and i seriously feel the tension le. zzz. my top 5. WEEHEE. haha im going to get it pls. llslslslssllssl. i so tired now, tmr still got flag day. tsk.so irritating. sure slack alot den go shop shop more than collect $$. worst thing is. somerset. sure damn crowded. bt im looking foward to the MRT ride though. twhehe.

lalalallaalalalalala~ i got alot maths paper frm mrs you today and im going to do dem. whenever im bored. set ar.lets hope aft tt my maths soars. arrrrr. dota was sucky today. -.-

可爱可恨。

2008-06-25T22:07:00.002+08:00

i actually have that face now. tis stinks. tmr deres sch again and deres humans AGAIN. so damn bored. jus start sch , im alrdy hating it. wonder wad i will do when it comes to exams. haiyo arrrrrrrrr.
today was a depressing day lar pls. ms chong practically was sad. and tt made mii even sadder, haiz. i dunno y our band now lik tt. i tink shes pissed by alot things ba. ALOT ALOT. seriously laar. if i was her. i crazy liao. hehe. everyday in sch is such a bother. i hope weekends come fast fast. so tt i can relax. like finally lar. LOL. although jus start sch 1 week . hehe its tiring ok. nt like some ppl who can slp till late late everyday morning, go take a test den can go home liao. so shuang can. everyday can eat nice nice food somemore. eat till $10 also nt enuf lor pls. haha.
i wan to play more dota now sia.zzz

刀枪不入，铜皮铁骨。我也希望能那样。只可惜，我们不同。

2008-06-24T21:49:00.003+08:00

i tink im too much a pessimistic person le. mus take note and change. someday. when i look bac at my archives. i will find tt there is such a day on my blog tt writes abt mi being a pessimist .and by tt time. i would have changed. hehe. its so nice.
i tink wishing is jus a fake it jus gives u a mental support and belief tt this thing would happen. bt most of the times, what u wish for would nvr ever happen. cus if it would, u wun wish for it. so when u wan something, mus go and grab it. hehe.

disappointed i mayb be, bt mot devastated.

2008-06-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

well, i tink i btr start to type in english b4 i lose my readers. or are my readers more when i type chi? o.o
im so bored now. i tink hor life is miseraible. got so mani thingys going on. cnt realli stop dem. and well, i was sad today, cus of tt thing. bt i tot thru it. if tis problem surface another time hor, i tink i will acept the offer le lar.its too much for a student to request of a teacher aniwae. i feel so contradicting myself whenever faced wih tis problem. haiz.
okie dokie. i mus slp soon. sch life sux. totally. bt some parts rox. i still haven do my chinese. im so sian diao now. how i wish a pumpkin man would drop down now. haiz.

不要让忌妒心占据你。

2008-06-22T21:48:00.002+08:00

我们常常形容人为逃避现实。其实现实根本无法逃避。因为逃避现实，就是一种现实。

这就想，我们不想看到眼前的一切，就转头，但还是要看到眼前的一切。抽水断水水根流，现实不会因为我们逃避而消失。像鸵鸟一样把头埋在土里，只会制造更多被捕的机会。所以对于现实只有一条路。就是兵来将挡，水来吐淹。

hohoho , sch is starting tmr. haiz. see my pic. i bet im going to do tt alot. sian sian sian . how i wish i can go band soon and nt get scolded tmr . cheers! =D

lalala.stupork. thnx